What am I?

I still searching the answer.. for the same questions that appear constantly inside my mind..
What am I?
Can't anybody describe "me"?
Refer to my condition........
What kind of person am I?

I am not A and I am not B
I am an A but I am also a B

This things is make me sick.. I need to find the answer, the truth, the proof, so they wud listen to me..

They say, so what?? Whether who you are, just keep on moving, be maximilize what you have..
But I can't.. seems I can't deal with my self.. :(
Hate what I see on the mirror..

Hate my condition
Hate my self
Hate me
Angry with my creator
Why this is happen to me?
When can I know which way to go?
Or when can I get that chance, to be changed?

Frustated.. :( :( :(