the journey begin

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the journey begin
and I'm scared
can't stop shaking
but i wanna face it
anything whatever
as long as my God is my guide

leaving all behind
but not my faith

may God bless everyone that love me
and i love

and lets hope that God will help me to do more that my best

God.. help meeeee.. :(

niwey, lets begin!!!!

crying to God..

3 am.. in the morning..
suddenly wake up..
and got cold! :(

and my brain is spinning around..
not understand what happened and what will happen
i just caught in the middle
Jesus, i got stress.. :(

too scare.. too worried..
a lot of things that messed up
i can't see the path..
but yes, once again
i will follow ur sign
i will follow you

and sometimes there is feeling like, is this really what i want
is this what i need?
so crazy
sometimes i want to stop and run away to what i used to be

yes its sound funny
how i crying begging u for this job
and i am also the one who want to run away from this!!

jesus.. please upgrade my faith
so i dont need to worry about simple thing about everything
cos i know that you r watching me
and its okay to do the mistakes, to fail
its okay to looked dumb
its okay to seem foolish

yes its okay

all iz well

jesus, please give me a courage
to pass this step of my life
to be better
to do my best

cos i have talent that u ve gave me
i know
and i should do it the best i can

jesus, take care of my body
take care of my soul
take care of me

and everyone, who love me.. n i love them

thanks.. (:

That's my GOD..!! =)

God.. wanna thank You for all the things happened..
Ruins.. Chaos.. But all the things is beautiful when I see U..
thanks for my angel, who saved my life..
thanks for the laughter and the tears..
thanks for the sun and the rain..
for everyhing! for my family, my friends.. for my boss, my job..
thanks God..
for the appologize..
for receiving me..
for not blaming me..
for show me how U really love me, and actually U r the love.

I'm so scare right away..
but yah, thanks for giving me this chance!
try my best, let me do my best.. for U, for that com, and for me.
for everyone..

sometimes, i wish i cud turn back time..
cud stop the time..
need more rime, haven't ready yet..

but GOD, if U say this is the time, then let it be the time.
i will trust u, i will surrender my life to You

U know my past, my present, my future..
Cos u r my God..

thanks.. =)

I'm not okay, o God..

God, I'm in condition like I can't even pray.. :(
I feel like everything has gone wrong..
And I feel lost..
Feel like I'm even not knowing myself..

It's so hurting me, like I'm nothing
they start to laugh at me, while they don't even know what I am facing
they judge, and they feel like I'm not precious
and I can't be real

and everything that happened between us, it's nothing but a mistake
it's so hurt, Jesus
so hurt till i thought that I better die
forgive me for that thought

Jesus, how to live my life? I just want to know how to run my life wisely?
coz what i need and what i get is far different
and what i think maybe just far false and wrong
Jesus, cud I have normal life?
I mean, am I right?
if U said go on, then I'm going on
if no, please stop me for being dumb of myself

God, I'm not feeling well
i think i'm gonna go crazy
please just come and save me..
i'm really exhausted
i can't handle it myself

i just want to be true about my self
i'm so tired of all this things

about the job, please place me, anywhere that u feel that i cud growing up

and what is the pain in my things?
do i have to get some medical check up?
:(
God, why it can't be just being like that? just happen like that..
:( :(
forgive me, the one who never being thankful for your blessing..