suck!

Jesus, don't you know that my life is suck!
no.. no.. no.. my life is a mercy..
but they just make me hate my life, hate my self, hate You..
they say about responsibility, trust, principle, and love.. to forget and forgive..
they over help, to change, to be right, and they think that they are right!!

God, until when... I have to hold this feeling?
to keep trying to be someone else?
to pretend that I am as they are... to laugh at my condition with them..
to try be a "better" person, and "kill" my self

I wanna die, tonight..
I hate being me..
I hate this condition..
I hate pain that never end..

where are You, my Survivor?
help me, I'm insane, I lose my way..
I need You right now
I'm badly broken

we need Your help, Jesus..
please show the world that You are exis to help us
show us Your way
help us through this
too many people feel the same way

please God, please..
come here and take away us..

thanks